Saturday, December 27, 2008

I Remember

I remember Cindy today as always. And I am missing you still.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Dear Zachary

Tonight I watched one of the finest documentary. It is called Dear Zachary: A Letter to a Son About His Father. The mean mudder told me about this one. But she didn't warn me that it would tear your heart out. I haven't cried that hard in a long long time. I hope more people see this film it is excellent. I would say more about it but I am still processing it myself. Especially after the finding of Caylee Anthony body this week. So get a box of tissues and watch it.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

When A Hero Fails

I happened to be reading a year old issue of Time magazine. In it was a little blurb by Cat Stevens and it listed him among other things as a philanthropist. I could not believe that description of him. While it is true that he has given money to Islamic charities. But I would not call someone a philanthropist who agreed with calling for a fatwa on a writer. Since he himself is a songwriter. To agree with calling for the murder of Salman Rushdie is beyond belief. Especially if you know his past.

I had always been a huge Cat Stevens fan. I had nearly all his album including ones which were not big sellers like Buddha and the Chocolate Box. His photo on the Teaser and the Fire Cat album was the most beautiful photo of a man I had ever seen. To quote Jimmy Carter "I have lusted in my heart," over that photo. But more then that I loved his words and he became my hero. He always sang of things I cared about. Peace, love, the world, difficulties with parents, etc. I like to think that at the time he wrote and sang them. He meant every word. I believed as he did. At times in my early teenage years his songs were the only comfort I could find. I saw him in concert one time. And still to this day it was one of the best concerts I have ever seen.

Then as quickly as my hero came he was gone. I read about how he was swimming and almost drown. How in his panic he asked god to spare him and he would then serve him. He became a Muslim. My hero would do something like that. I did miss his music but I understood. Jump ahead two decades or so and my hero failed. Calling on the murder of a human being. It broke my heart. What happened to my hero, the man I had admired so much. Over the years he has continually disappointed me.

He has kept quiet about the terrorists attacks in the world. Even in his own country England. He has made snide remarks about America and Americans. Yet he keeps selling his music to us. And we dummies keep buying it. I no long can listen to his songs and I have never bought a thing of his since the Salman Rushdie incident. He was the one who sang of standing up for your beliefs. And so I have. Someone even gave me a new CD collection of work. I gave it away. He has no place in my life anymore. He is a hero who failed.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

The difference a decade makes!

I was thinking the other day about the differences a decade can make. Especially in my kid's life. A decade ago she left home for college and except for some brief bits of time she never moved back. In that decade she has accomplished a lot. A bachelor's and master's degree, got a great career, a great job, a great husband (but don't tell the boy I said that), taken a cruise, and now they bought a house. That's a lot and I am proud of her. I am also proud of the boy (but don't tell the boy I said that). But it also makes me sad especially them buying a house. That was the nail in the coffin for me. My little girl will never move home again.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Christmas Crazies!

Okay it's back again the Christmas crazies. That what I call what I get at this time of year. I love everything about this holiday season. But you wouldn't know it to look at my house. I gave up decorating and baking awhile ago. And I don't really miss it. I enjoy other people's decorating and baking. My crazies have change thru the years, it used to be the decorating and baking. Now it's gift giving and cooking for Christmas Eve. And that tingle in my stomach for Christmas Eve and day. When I think of those days I still feel like a kid. I don't know why but I hope I never lose the feeling. I hope you too get the holiday tingle!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Gobble gobble!

Just a quick note to list some things I am thankful for this year. They are as follows in no order of importance: family, friends, the kid & the boy just bought a house, Obama was elected, ass wipe Bush will soon be out of office, stock market up, gas prices down, Christmas is coming, my cats, my tivo, my computer, food, chocolate, sleep, being single, and too many things to mention.